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I miss blogging. I'm good at it. I lead a pretty interesting life and I believe that I have a funny way of telling people about it.

I was reading my past blog posts and I had to laugh. My oh my how life has changed in a year.

We now have our Quinny - the 4 month old light of our lives. I was laid off when I was 5 months pregnant and have been a stay at home mommy since January of this year. I bombed the bar again and for some reason plan on taking it yet AGAIN in Feb '11. Damn those pesky dreams of greatness.

Tim is good. The family is good. The dogs are good. I am good. Really good actually. But lately I feel a bit restless. I tried the stay at home mommy thing. I love being here for Quinn, but I don't buy the whole "she needs be every second of the day" argument. Being around her 24/7 does not make me a good mom. It makes me a mom who sits and wonders if I am making a mistake by being around 24/7. I worked my ass off to get where I am in the world. 19 years of school is a VERY long time. I enjoy using my brian, adult conversations and using my education to better the lives of the people in my family. I don't think that makes me a bad mom. Plus, I think nowadays the SAHM title is abused. Living off your husband's money, sitting around all day on facebook, not working on educating your children, not cleaning or doing anything productive that betters your family does not a SAHM make. I have spent the last months doing everything I said that I wanted to do while I did work. Quinn and I go to the park, read books, go to the beach, museums, travel, shop and nap.

But, back to the restless part of me...
Quinn sleeps from midnight to 9:30am. Yes, we are blessed. She's up for an hour and then she goes down for a 3-hour nap. That's just the way that she is. She doesn't get up and rolling until at least 1pm. If I get a job where I am working from 8am-3pm that technically means that I am only missing 2 hours a day of her life. I can live with that. Plus, the student loans can only be deferred for so long - those damn people want their money and I need to give it to them - pretty soon. So, I have to go back to work. Tim is trying everything in his power to come up with $, so we'll see. I'm going to the Price is Right on 10/25 so maybe I'll get lucky, get on the show and win $25k in Plinko....it could happen.